Posts Tagged ‘Grief’
I am not going to sugar coat here. Today has not been a good day. I want my grandson back. I want him back everyday, but today seems harder then some. Today I seemed to feel more pain, not only for missing him but for my Cinderella and my family. I feel it. If some want to be mad at me for this, then so be it. I have refrained from letting my feelings out, but no more. I have feelings too.
This weekend, I planted flowers from Lolly Pop Kid’s service. I decided to do it because it rained and the ground was soft. I never expected the reaction I had. I felt it was happening again.
Today is exactly eight months that we lost our Lolly, it is Tuesday, the day it happened & Cinderella has been married for one month.
I want my grandson back. I am not ashamed to say that.
Tags: baby, flowers, grandchild, Grief, Lolly Pop Kid, Valentine's Day
I found this on another blog. So I thought I would post it here too.
An excerpt from “Streams in the Desert” by L.B. Cowman, a daily devotional.
“Sorrow is better than laughter, because a sad face is good for the heart” (Ecc. 7:3)
Sorrow, under the power of divine grace, performs various ministries in our lives. Sorrow reveals unknown depths of the soul, and unknown capacities for suffering and service.
Lighthearted, frivolous people are always shallow and are never aware of their own meagerness or lack of depth. Sorrow is God’s tool to plow the depths of the soul, that it may yield a richer harvest…
Sorrow makes us move more slowly and considerately and examine our motives and attitudes. It opens within us the capacities of the heavenly life, and it makes us willing to set our capacities afloat on the limitless sea of service for God and for others….
God never uses anyone to a great degree until He breaks the person completely. Joseph experiences more sorrow than the other sons of Jacob, and it led him into a ministry of food for all the nations. For this reason, the Holy Spirit said of him, “Joseph is a fruitful vine…near a spring, whose branches climb over the wall” (Gen 49:22) It takes sorrow to expand and deepen the soul.
The dark brown soil is turned
By the sharp-pointed plow;
And I’ve a lesson learned.
My life is but a field,
Stretched out beneath God’s sky,
Some harvest rich to yield.
Where grows the golden grain?
Where faith? Where sympathy?
In a furrow cut by pain.
(Maltbie D. Babcock)
Tags: Grief, Lollypop Kid, sorrow
Tags: angel, blog, Cinderella, grandchild, Grief, Lolly Pop Kid, Miss Foundation
Yesterday, family and friends came together and we planted Lolly’s tree. The week before, I prayed for cooler weather and that prayer was answered. I was a little worried a major storm might interrupted the planting but that did not happen. The tree was a little bigger than I expected. I have a VW bug. The tree is about 5 feet tall and it actually fit in my car. I fell in love with it the moment I saw it. LCpl Honda dug the hole in the yard. Everyone arrived and we feasted on sub sandwiches and potato salad. Grandma M brought a carrot cake. Lolly loved baby carrots. Everyone took turns shoveling dirt into the hole. Then Butterfly and my friend’s daughter, Big Brown Eyes helped Lolly’s dad Tango make a well around the tree. Finally, we made a circle around Lolly’s tree and said a prayer and asked God to bless the tree.
It was a wonderful day.
After the planting, I gave everyone a picture of Lolly’s name in the sand.
I am posting our group picture, although we took many pictures that day. The rest I have chosen to keep private. I am also posting a picture of my dad, Grandpa DingDon, one of Lolly’s namesakes. No recipe today. Yesterday was simple, kind of like a picnic. Everyone knows how to make a picnic. Yes?
We love you sweet boy. Donovan. Our Lolly Pop Kid.
I had to add this drawing, done by Butterfly, Lolly’s sissy.
ps. The drawing was lying on my kitchen table today and my cat decided to walk on it. The blue background was done with pastel chalk. I just spent a whole bunch of time in my bathroom trying to wash the blue color off of my cat’s feet. Fun.
Yea, I think that is all I have to say about that…
Tags: angel, baby, boy, Butterfly, Cinderella, Corvette, grandchild, Grandma M, Grandpa DingDon, Grief, LCpl Honda, Lolly Pop Kid, Orange Tree, Tango
This Saturday we will plant a tree for our Lolly Pop Kid. Our family and Tango’s family will gather at our home and together we will plant an orange tree for Lolly.
I prayed to God that the weather would be a little cooler since the temperature has been around 106 degrees. I mean I really prayed. I just want everyone to be comfortable. However, I did not ask for a hurricane. We do not get full-force hurricanes where we live but we do get some nasty storms from them. So I am hoping the weather will be nice and not drench us with rain all day on Saturday.
I am happy about receiving this photo. There is a woman in Australia writes the names of Angel children in the sand on a beach. She then photos them at sunset and uploads them to her blog. The pictures are absolutely beautiful. I cried when I say Lolly’s photo. There appears to be a red halo over the sun. As I have said before, Lolly had wonderful flaming red hair. So everyone attending the tree planting will receive one of these photos. I think it will be a lovely addition.
Tags: angel, family, grandchild, Grief, hurricane, Lolly Pop Kid, names in the sand, plant a tree, rain
Today’s Angel is Brianna Sharp. Brianna was a lively 7th grader when last fall she was diagnosed with diffuse intrinsic pontine glioma, a highly aggressive brain tumor. She went to heaven surrounded by her family on July 25, 2009.
Brianna loved running cross-country at school. She also played the flute in her school band and liked art.
Her father Matt said she had a contagious smile and laugh. She would laugh at his jokes even when they were not that funny.
Brianna kept a daily blog where she has chronicled her battle with cancer. She also describes her life with family and friends.
Brianna’s faith grew during her illness. She wore a cross, carried a rosary and said the Hail Mary. Many family and friends attended her 13th birthday party this past spring.
Brianna is loved and missed by her family, friends and all who knew her. Please say a prayer for Brianna and her family.
Please continue to pray for Lolly Pop Kid and our families. We now have answers as to why Lolly went to Heaven. I will not post that here. The information does not make me feel better. It just breaks my heart more and gives my brain more stuff to think about.
Today is also the start of Childhood Cancer Awarness Month. This is near and dear to my heart because Butterfly once battled Leukemia and won! Please take a moment to think about the littlist warriors today and through the month.
Tags: angel, Angel Tuesday, Brianna Sharp, cancer, grandchild, Grief, Lolly Pop Kid
hole in the red sky cloud
all of these clouds appeared on a different Angelversaries of our Lolly Pop Kid.
Tags: angel, baby, boy, clouds, grandchild, Grief, heaven, Lolly Pop Kid, wordless wednesday
Angel Tuesday profiles Asa Imad Mayle who became and angel on January 4, 2007. He was 6 years old and in the first grade. Asa was hit by a school bus as he was crossing the street.
I learned of Asa through Virtual Memorials. Lolly Pop Kid’s online memorial is at this site also. Please feel free to visit.
Asa was an inquisitive little boy with a big kool-aid smile and big brown eyes. He liked his clothes nice and neat and he especially loved his belt.
Asa absolutely loved everything Batman. He had Batman sheets and would tie them around his neck and make a cape. His mommie could not resit buying Asa Batman stuff.
He once asked his mommie, “If Batman can’t fly why does he have a cape?” Good question.
Asa even at his young age would talk about growing up, getting married and going to college. He wanted to go to Ohio State. He also new what kind of car he would like to own. Asa wanted a PT Cruiser. Spotting PT Cruisers became a game for Asa. He would shout “PT Cruiser I saw it you missed it!!”
Asa is loved and missed by his family and always will be. Please take a moment to visit his beautiful memorial made in loving memory of Asa by his mommie.
Tags: angel, Angel Tuesday, Asa Mayle, boy, grandchild, Grief, heaven, Lolly Pop Kid
We enjoyed a weekend with Cinderella, Tango & Butterfly. They came down to to visit and see Fuzzy & Wuzzy our new twins. The twins are doing well, but always seem to be sleeping when we visit.
Cinderella gifted Hippie Guy & Flower Child with a digital camera so they can provide us with lots of pictures of Fuzzy & Wuzzy. I have a few more to post and will do that at the end of this post.
I like my new blackberry phone but it has quite a learning curve. It is like a mini computer. Any help would be appreciated.
Today’s recipe is my most favorite potato salad. It doesn’t really have a name so I will just call it Juliannah’s Potato Salad.
Eight to Ten Red Potatoes
2 Hard Boiled Eggs
1 cup Mayonnaise
1/4 cup Rice Vinegar
1 Tbsp Sugar
1/4 cup Red Bell Pepper
1/2 tsp Onion Powder
1/2 tsp Salt
1/2 tsp Pepper
1/2 tsp Paprika
Boil the potatoes with the skins on until done. Boil the eggs until done. Cut up the potatoes and eggs. Cut the bell pepper into small pieces. Mix potatoes,eggs & peppers. Mix mayonnaise, vinegar, spices & sugar into potatoes, eggs & peppers. That is it. You can also substitute green bell pepper, pickle relish or anything else you may desire.
Here are another couple pics of the twins:
Today is also the 2nd month angelversary for Lolly Pop Kid. We all miss him so much. I had a knock at the door today and it was Mormon missionaries. They gave me a card with a illustration of Jesus and on the back of the card it said, “Faith in Christ can help you resolve personal and family challenges.
God Just keeps knocking on our door.
Lolly Pop Kid we love you and miss you. We want you back.
And that is all I have to say about that.
Tags: angel, Flower Child, grandchild, Grief, Hippie Guy, Lolly Pop Kid, sunday brunch, Tango, twins
Today’s Angel Tuesday child is Ethan who became an Angel on July 26, 2008. He went to heaven because of a horrible drowning accident.
Ethan, a beautiful 6 year old with a smile that exudes radiant energy and a huge open-mouth laugh that delighted everyone. All that knew Ethan commented on his smile.
Ethan loved creating ships with Legos and playing with Star Wars toys. He loved tossing a football and listening to his Veggie Tales CD.
On what would have been Ethan’s 7th Birthday his family held a Global Star Wars party where many people from all over the world watched the movie Star Wars.
Ethan is and will always be very much loved and missed by his family. His mom Lisa keeps a blog where she has written so beautifully about Ethan, her family’s loss and how they manage the “new normal.” Lisa is also a wonderful photographer as there are many poignant photos of Ethan and her family.
Tags: angel, Angel Tuesday, angelversary, birthday, boy, Ethan Forster, grandchild, Grief, Lolly Pop Kid, Star Wars